I read more books in the last 9 months than I have read in almost a decade. I have had a few folks ask what books I read as I was coping with everything that was going on, so over the course of the next few weeks I will share a few of those titles and authors and what message they spoke to me. I had a chance to read authors that I had never heard of, only because they were in a genre that I had never considered reading, and they are now among my must-haves when new books come out.
Wait and See by Wendy Pope: I have to be honest about this one, I found it because of an Amazon search about patience and waiting. I am glad I found it. I read this about 2 weeks or so into my marriage separation as I was trying to figure out what to do. Do I beg him to come home? Do I ignore him and make him miss me? Do I just throw up my hands, say forget it and move on? This was one of the most confusing and gut-wrenching seasons of my life. I was being told to get over it and move on by the man that I had spent the last 14 years with, but how is that even possible?
Wendy does a great job of starting the reader down the path of “letting go and letting God.” I will be the first to admit that it drove me crazy when people would say that. What does that even mean? I tried and tried to let it go, but to put it in terms we all understand, you can’t steal second base with your foot still on first.
I was successful in some attempts to let things work themselves out, but in other ways, I just had to “help” God because certainly He didn’t just expect me to sit still and watch. That’s exactly what He wanted me to do. And the more I intervened to speed something up, the further He moved that damn dangling carrot out of my grasp. I felt like that State Farm commercial with the old man dangling a dollar bill from a fishing pole in front of someone making a bad decision. “Whoops, almost had it there, didn’t ya?” It was humiliating, but thankful it was a secret between Him and me.
I’m still working on it, but I feel myself getting a little more comfortable waiting. We all want our prayers answered exactly how we want them and exactly when we want them. It doesn’t work like that and it works to our disadvantage if we whine and try to manipulate the situation in order to speed it up. Be careful what you wish for because it may get there a little more quickly by doing it your way, but it probably won’t be the outcome you had hoped for. Trust me, I learned the hard way.
“Faith is taking the first step before God reveals the second.”